This is my love...

As everyone you may have many friends

There may be a guy

You may go out with them all every time

You may eat with them

Chat with them...

Laugh with them... all the time

Even at night

You may sit tight

At times you even say to me that you love to be with them

That never pinches my possessiveness

Time when you’re upset n cry for any reason...

Then someone from there consoles you

Made you smile

Only that pinches me

Piss me off...

That’ll ask me why I’m here when someone is take care of your smile!

I can't be goob :P

It’s me...

I never let any relationship get deep to me

But I plant one deep inside me

As they’re me...

Though I know that they gonna leave me...

I hardly trust one

And I pray that they should never understand me

Coz I love the pain of being abandoned

Dark after dark never show the difference

I go to the light... Brightest

Then I smash everything to feel the darkest dark

I lay on one shoulder

I rest on only one nest

I shut all the doors around

I set fire n wander like abandoned child

I love the pain...

It’s not the curse I walk alone

I love to walk like an orphan

As who cares

I run with my own legit

I never want anyone to get me rid out of it

I walk into it again n again

It’s me..

I create complication

I put myself in suffocation

I see myself suffering

I drown in my tears... Bleed... suffer

I never get upset...

If you see me dead

Then believe me I’m not the victim

I’d be the killer

But it never could be suicide

I’d have tested something...

It’s me

THIS IS MY LIFE!

Remember...
I cry

They may say that I’m missing beautiful life

I go mad

They may worry

I cry, I worry, I go mad but I know...

That I’m crying,

I’m worrying

I'm mad

There is hell of happiness in every corner of my cry

Though they try nobody can reach it

Don't pry in my life

This is my life!

After every whack I still stand

Don’t pretend my feelings

I never mind if you’re not understand

Though my sky s falling down I build it again

I’m not guzzler but hustler

This is my life!

They see me by being in their life

All the time I’m not standing with knife

I may be wounded but...

I hound my dreams, still it’s in my eyes

I shattered at times

But I’m not broken

So soon I can’t be better after bettered

I’m not shy n can’t sly

If I feel I’ll cry

HAPPILY ...

THIS IS MY LIFE!

Times in rest room!

It’s totally disgusting. For all this might be over reacting, but it’s my pain. Now I have things what one need at this age, my career, my pay and everything. Still it’s aching, I missed something. That’s what I said long time back “if money is my only problem I would have been keep on crying since I heard the word money”.

I ever felt bad for even at the time my pay was low. All I knew I‘ll reach my goal. Even after graduation, I wandered like a dog for a simple job; even that time my status update was ‘sharpening my AXE’. Damn now I felt very bad about myself. I cried n cried enough for more than half year, still I feel the pain at every night. I ever had a though that I’ll go lonely again. I’m okay now and all time unless hear those words … unless I met, I don’t know what’s happening, might be nervous, fear, crumple … stuck up … thirst … killing me in simple. I don’t know why I’m still struggling.

Please someone help me to come out of this … I'm struggling to sleep all nights ...

How she is expecting me to talk casually, even as soon as I received any chat message from her I’m running to rest room and I cry enough then I get back to my job. Even today!

Do you thing I’m coward?